The Letter of My Thought...

Dear SO and so,

How are you? It have been kind of long that I did not pen down any words in this space. The virtual memory space for human being like you and me to put down their thoughts and feelings of happiness and sadness.Today is the eve of my birth, it seem to bring back a lot of memory from happy to sad. I willnever forget the day that we go our seperate ways for good.

Life have been very bz for me, not remembering anything as it pass so quickly. I have no moment of peace and quiet as it used to be but a bundle of worry each day, making meold and tired. Change is so much critical in my life that I, myself cannot adapt to it.Pretending to be able to accept it and pretending to be able to enjoy it. It is fake,very fake, so fake that I do not recognise my own self. Have I lost my identity? Have I lost my self principle? What have I done to myself? Where is my soul? Who am I?I hardly recognise the face in the mirror....each morning looking at it as it is a stranger staring at me.

I lost my words to describe, I lost myself into the cruelity of society. Wht have I done?Is it wrong to love someone? Is it wrong to earn extra? Is it wrong to have a better life?Is it wrong to help others? Is it wrong to be happy? Is wrong to love money? Is it wrong...I'm speechless....I'm not happy. WHY??!!

Where are you when I needed you? Where are you? I'm down, sad and depress. The you came, you giveme hope, a little light not much but little. Enough to make me smile and feel appreciated and needed.To feel that I still need to be here continue living for a cause. You make me feel there are still hope,love and belonging. Thank you, thank you for letting me feels this way. It's not easy but I'm tryingto enjoy the attention and care you gave to me.

For a moment you were gone, then you are back when I think of you. Is it great!! The power of thought is almightypowerful. The wave length and frequency of the brain create miracle and unexpected.Seeing a glimpes of you is like a light years of stare, fading....slowly the light went dim, dim...dark.

Written by,
Mimi